no mercy

Wow I played bad tonight. I misclick called twice with nothing. I chased a draw early for a third of my chips. Then I took a note on a guy who would raise 2x and then either fold or show down a marginal hand like KJ. He did this again and I shoved over him (I was short anyway), feeling he was weak. Problem was, the guy in that spot with the 2x weak raise was the LAST tourney. This guy had JJ and called.

3 tourneys lost in a row. I literally did not win won hand postflop (I looked this up to be sure). Not one hand except for a couple blind steals.

In the fourth tourney, I called the shortest stack shove with TT. He had A7 and hit his ace on the turn. This put me under 6BB.

I won a few preflop shoves, and then this hand from the big blind.

Full Tilt Poker, $20 + $2 NL Hold'em Sit n' Go, 80/160 Blinds, 5 Players
LeggoPoker.com - Hand History Converter

SB: 5,660
Hero (BB): 1,125
UTG: 2,805
CO: 1,990
BTN: 1,920

Pre-Flop: (240) 4 K dealt to Hero (BB)
UTG folds, CO calls 160, 2 folds, Hero checks

Flop: (400) 2 K 4 (2 Players)
Hero checks, CO checks
Two pair against an aggressive player. Nice. I'll check and hope he bets.

Turn: (400) 5 (2 Players)
Hero bets 240, CO calls 240
Ok, gotta bet now. I'm of course calling if he shoves.

River: (880) 7 (2 Players)
Hero bets 725 and is All-In, CO calls 725
Flush came in, oh well. I'm not folding to a shove with two pair, so I might as well shove myself.

Results: 2,330 Pot
Hero showed 4 K (two pair, Kings and Fours) and LOST (-1,125 NET)
CO showed 8 6 (a straight flush, Eight high) and WON 2,330 (+1,205 NET)

When villain showed his runner-runner straight flush, I swear to God - I got dizzy, my stomach turned, and my vision started to spin. I felt nauseous and looked down, putting my head in my hands. This lasted for about a minute, until I could look up again without feeling like I needed to vomit.

Be clear - I am not just saying these things for dramatic effect. The poker gods kicked the shit out me tonight, and I felt physically sick afterwards. That's some strong stuff.

Fortunately, I get a break from the online world, as my cash game is tomorrow night. It's been a very bad week.